Divorce pre trial

Well the judge didn't like that Randy didn't show up in court.
He is so ordered to get the car payments up to date. and pay it off...I get it in the divorce.
He is also ordered to pay the spousal support, and the medical bills.

 Now, I would have thought that Randy would have taken court seriously.
But he didn't. I cannot wait that my name will be returned to HALE.
I'm moving on with my life. FINALLY!
Thank you for not showing up Randy. You really gave me a great christmas gift!
Happy Holidays!
Your EX WIFE...
Oh and miss jennifer...as i see it your daughter with my now husband is my step daughter...b/c i'm married to him...my friends loved the fact that you rub it in that u had my husbands baby....but since i'm married to him thats my step daughter legally.

Fun times with friends

Jason Putting up our tree...It was comical to watch! I'll post a pic of the tree finished soon.

Last night we had friends over. We had a good time playing cranium. Bonnie and I kicked the boys' ass!

Here are some pics from last night

Bonnie my best friend! shes more like my sister!

The Crew...Jason, Tasha, Bonnie, Brandon, and Ray

Ray...he was drinking

Bonnie after we kicked some ass!

Brandon...He hates his pic taken

Bonnie and her man Ray

Bonnie and her other man Edward LOL

So now onto the blog you've all been waiting for...

I learned who my friends are. We went out to get our mail today and our xmas card was opened up. and the person who did it left a beer bottle in the mailbox...and i know who was drinking a bottle of budlight. So needless to say I do not think that person will be invited back here anytime soon. PLUS, they thought it would be funny to take my 6ft cardboard Edward and put him outside...so since the disrespected me i kicked them all out...it was about 3:30am so it was time for the party to be over anyways. I felt like a bitch tho. But i have house rules and if people don't follow them then they  are not welcome in my home.

Jason brought me home blue and white flowers yesterday...and he spelled out i love you with candles...how sweet right? heres the flowers...he got them b/c he knew they were my favorite color.

For some reason it won't rotate...

List challenge...

Sorry I haven't updated in like a day! lol seems so long hasn't it?
i'm doing two list challenges tonight

1.      Ways you calm yourself down when you’re angry

  -listen to music

  -Write

  -Talk to my best friend

  -Talk to Jason

  -take a walk

  -Take a drive

  -think of the things i'm grateful for

  -think of what i have that others don't 

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 Things you still want to do in life

- Have children

-Get married to the greatest man on earth

  Buy a home 

  Start my own business 

  Have a successful business

  buy my dream vehicle

  Start a blog about whats really going on in my life....with no editing....i edit b/c i have to

  Do a project 365 with photos

  Take a photo of myself everyday for a year

  Change my circumstances.

  Better myself. in different ways 

  I love myself but i would like to lose weight for my wedding

  make sure my friends and family know what they really mean to me.

 ....i'm sure theres more but i'm going to go cook dinner and get ready for someone to come home.

Things I'm grateful for...

Sorry i haven't wrote in a day i had friends over and we stayed up until 4am...so i didn't get to do my daily challenge.

This is another list. I do this everyday so its nothing new....but i'll list what i'm  grateful for now, for what i have...and then what i'm grateful for whats to come.
Now
-Jason..my world.
-Gabby-my princess
-My education
-My home
-My material objects
-Everything that fills my home including the everlasting love that I have.
-the passion Jason and I share.
-My family
-My friends. including Bonnie, Brandon, Kim, Teaka, Devan...the list goes on!
-The Job Jason has...he works his ass to the bone
-my car

Future
-My children.
-My Business
-My money
-My car
-My divorce being finalized
-my wonderful life....not that its not wonderful now but it'll be better later.
-other things i cannot write.

List Challenge....

I'I'm not going in any certain order here i'm just doing the list challenge what looks like it would be interesting to do or fun to do...then i'll do the rest. Tonight i'm doing two instead of one!

       Reasons why you love your significant other

   -He is always there for me

  -he listens

- -he gives good advice

- -he provides for me...even tho i don't like it sometimes.

  -he loves me!

  -he looks beyond my flaws

  -he supports me- emotionally and mentally

- -he is my opposite. this is sometimes good but sometimes bad as well...

  -he allows me to be me.

  -he wants to give me everything under the sun. (which can be bad, b/c he spoils me!)

- -we like the same things, movies, music etc.

  -he takes care of me when i'm sick...which is not the easiest thing to do.

   Things i love about him

  -his smile

  -his laugh

  -the looks he gives me..

  -the well....i can't say b/c i'm a lady, and i have class.

  -he lets me do whatever, whenever

  

.....theres more but i have to go! sorry everyone but i'm sure you get the idea.

Elements of an Ideal Year

Elements of an Ideal  Year

Well this is an easy one! For an Ideal year I’d like my divorce to be finalized. I would like Valentine’s day to just be simple. Time together with Jason is all I want.  All holidays I would like to spend around family. Maybe get pregnant this year…MAYBE. We will see. Get engaged (this will happen by 2012) and our date is set already! And the theme for our wedding is being knocked around…More time with Gabby! Add more things to our home that reminds us of our life together…can you believe I don’t have one photo of us printed out?!! And I’m a photographer!!! Spend more time with my friends, those that are here for me…not the ones that pretend to be. Keep getting good grades in school. That’s a must for an ideal year!  Maybe go to Florida and visit Jason’s family, I’d love to meet his sister. Hmmm idk what else could make my ideal year…I already have everything I wanted and so much more! 

I'm starting a blog project

Blog Project- I’m starting a blog project. It’ll consist of letters, lists, photos, and just plain blogs. I’m doing this to become more aware of what I really have in my life, what I should be appreciating more than anything.  Plus, I always like to improve myself; these projects should help me improve myself greatly. This blog has turned into a mess, if I may say so myself. I do not want to keep drama going, my life is better than anyone. I have the best thing in life. LOVE, true passionate love! And no one can take that away from me! I should not have to deal with a younger woman thinking that she has a better life b/c she is with the person that I discarded. I’m not addressing that UNLESS a project wants me too. Until then the drama stops here. I’m a grown woman and it should not matter who is with who or what they have…b/c I have it all right here in my own heaven.

First project- Things  I should have known 10 years ago.

Life-

-Be organized, and keep it that way!

-Believe in something,  stick to your daily bible teachings. PRAY.

-Keep an open mind

-Read more, and educate yourself more.

-pay attention in school, middle and high school are very important and crucial for your future.

-Take better care of your health and your body

-Make better friends who stick around for the hard times not just the good.

-THINK ABOUT YOUR FUTURE BEFORE ITS FACING YOU.               

-Find a good job and save money

-Be more independent-not dependent

-stick up for yourself.

-stick up for what is right and wrong

-speak your mind

-no huge tattoos that you might regret

-Don’t let anyone take advantage of you!

Relationships

-Everyone hurts you at least once, find someone that hurts your less often and makes up for all the bad.

-Wait for an AMAZING MAN.

-Family first, friends second, self-last

-Do not let anyone control you!

-Make better friends, that’ll be there for you during the tough times and will just be there for you

-be more patient and kind

-Show MORE love than anyone can receive.

Thanksgiving, Skating and a Random update...oh and PHOTOS!!!

Well, not much has changed since the last blog.
School is going great! My home has came together perfectly...there are a few things i want to do to it to finish it up but its almost there...then i'll post photos! (no photos of the outside, b/c i don't want anyone knowing where i live) unless your close to me.
Jason and i have been together for 7 months now! He bought a diamond ring! I didn't think i'd get married again, well with the love that Jason and I have is unique and incomparable...my relationship with Jason is unlike any relationship, I've ever been in. I'm actually scared to lose him! I'm scared that he'll wreck or some other tragedy, b/c all the great love stories end in tragedy.he hasn't purposed yet...but he will soon..i cannot wait to say yes to being with him forever...to growing old with him!! and him only! Our life together is amazing. And no matter what anyone says my life is better than anyone else's life. that to me feels right and true.

Here are a few photos from Thanksgiving Day

    ALL PHOTOS ABOVE ARE FROM THANKSGIVING 2011

it was great to be surrounded by family. and having my princess Gabby with us this year! 

Everyone says she passes as my own. and in fact my great aunt thought she was mine! i actually had to explain she's my step daughter.

A few days before Thanksgiving Jason took Gabby and I skating. it was fun, i fell a LOT but i had a great time with my little family....here are photos  from that day/night

Gabby's Small Skates

Daddy helping Gabby

Daddy and Gabby!

Gabby at the end of skating! she had so much fun despite falling all the time...Mommy (me) taught her how to skate without her walker...she was so happy that day. and exhausted that night

We all had so much fun having family time out side of the home is truly important. we were going to go to the Zoo and look at the animals and lights but it rained that night and so we found the skate place. 

I'm always behind the camera! thank god seeing me fall so much would have been funny yet embarrassing!

Mommy's Princess...her dad and i would ask her whose princess was she and she'd always point to me and say mommy's! I love this photo of her! its beautiful and simple! Its Jason and i's favorite photo...taken by me of course!

Finally!

finally my daughter is here!!!
last night i spent a few hours with her then i had to leave her at my moms who babysat for me.
i went to see breaking dawn part 1...omg! loved it! Can't wait to see it again! Jason said your daughter and i will be waiting for u at home..that sentence meant a lot of everything lol
now i gtg gabby is trying to tell me something
photos of our home soon...and photos of gabby soon ttoo

Queen B: Enjoying myself.

Queen B: Enjoying myself.: I havent been online much, Ive been so busy with alot. I'm dealing and going through alot right now. I'm enjoying life and the beautiful fam...

Haha honey i don't want him!

I have a man better than he could ever be! Congrats on Raegan! the whole look at me thing...thats classy!

To Randy!

Happy Birthday!

I  forgive you for everything you've done to me. I'm happy you moved on!
I hope she is worth it. and i hope you know that i'm not suffering anymore!
I'm not hurting-my boyfriend helps me so much. he is more of a man than
you have ever been. i hope you really grew up!
I'm happier now than i have ever been! My life is so great and i cannot
believe  that i ever thought i couldn't live without you. b/c i can.
I hope you have a good life now. happy birthday.
-Your WIFE
remember we took those vows and i do still love the man i fell in love with in may 2008...but your not that man. I just don't love you enough to ever care or try again.

Our beautiful home...

OH the past few weeks have made me completely busy!
We have a beautiful apartment...its not completely done being decorated so i'm not posting photos...but when i do have it all done i'll post photos.
Jason got me all my sims games...and everything else i wanted related to that...we bought a flat screen yesterday.
So now i can hook my computer up to the flat screen and play....we tend to argue on who gets the flat screen because he has a playstation 3. i guess thats really the biggest arguments we have now.
Life is good....finally!
I don't have to be paranoid on if Randy knows where i live b/c i know theres no way in hell he'd find me. Yes over a year later i'm still scared of him. yet i know Jason would protect me if need be.
I was in the ER again last night. When we were shopping for our TV i felt dizzy and was about to pass out. So after awhile i did pass out at home...several times. It worried Jason so he called 911 and i spent hours in the ER just for them to say they don't know whats wrong...and if it happens again to come back.
other than that life truly is good. Jason and I are talking about the future...2013... cannot get here fast enough haha we talked about getting married but we want to wait and not rush things...b/c i'm not that stupid like another girl i know....no offense....
Alright well i'm going back to my great life instead of blogging about the details...i'll post pics of OUR apartment when i can....Happy Halloween!
oh and btw Gabby comes to visit for thanksgiving! i cannot wait to see my step daughter again!

NEW PLACE

Jason and I finally got another place...I'm so excited about it! I'm still close to school so that's a good thing, Close to parents too but not too close...Mainly b/c family is so Important to me.
School is going excellent. Last quarter I had a 4.0 GPA! That's my goal this quarter also.
Jason gets Gabby for Thanksgiving! I'm happy about that b/c i love Gabby being around.
I want all new furniture but i'm hoping to get everything i want...everything on my wishlist. and on the 20th i'm buying more things. I cannot wait for it all to come together...I'll take before and after photos...
I gtg but i had to blog about the new place...i'm too excited and hopefully it all comes together better than i expect it too...and with this new place comes a lot of other things like my relationship is transforming into something much deeper than any relationship i've EVER been in. Jason really is my knight in shining armor and i'm not going to over exaggerate but honestly he is...plus i'm not going to lie i really do love him. and I'm REALLY REALLY HAPPY...about everything..

Another Update!

Well I crushed my left hand in my car door...messed up the nerves in it. after Lancaster said it was a bone bruise two days later i go to first care b/c it was twitching and it hurt so bad. They then said i have nerve damage...it hurts a lot and its been throbbing for two days straight! And i just got over a stomach virus....
Jason's schedule is hectic and yes i get to see him sleep...but it feels like that's it. His work upsets me b/c i want more time with him. But i just have to grin and bare it.
I started Fall Quarter last week...its going great. Love my Marketing class, Small business Management 2, and Practices and principles of management...and even Com....which is all my classes..I actually have fun in each class...which is usually hard for me to say b/c i get bored easily. but theres so much work that i don't get bored...thats another reason i do not get time with Jason b/c right now our schedules conflict with each other.
His mom is coming to Ohio soon...I'm worried she'll hate me, or will think I'm not right for her son...So i'm Scared.
Perry County Court had a venue hearing for the Divorce..I won't know for a few weeks what will happen. Please Pray for the outcome to come in my favor and keep it here in Ohio. I wrote a letter to the court b/c Randy wrote one saying i'm a drug dealer...and that i work...which i don't....matter of fact i signed up for disability b/c i have been declared unemployable. B/c Of my mental state (thanks to Randy) and b/c of my Fibromyalgia. and as for the drug dealer crap i'll address that too...There was a "drug bust" or whatever you want to call it. The Perry County cops served a search warrant at my parents home, (which i no longer live) they took all the computers, all our cell phones, all my parents medicines and other items, there have been NO CHARGES FILED AGAINST MY PARENTS OR ME. b/c my parents had all there pills they do NOT sell them they take them as directed  b/c they need them. but Randy said he stopped paying support b/c  he was fueling my drug activity...which is bullshit I do not do drugs...unless you count me taking vicodin for my crushed nerves. I do not take them to get high...i take them as directed...and so on and so forth. I think its hilarious that Randy claims all of this and yet he is wrong...he even claimed that he was deployed and i left the apartment with everything in it and thats why we both have to pay $1,500....which what really happened was i  was kicked out and told to find my own way back to Ohio. So i did. and he had TWO WEEKS to clean out the apartment. and yet he was too busy with his girlfriend to do anything!
ok so i'm done ranting about that!
I have to go i have class soon. I hope everyone is doing good!
Off to my P&P class....

Just another Update!

I don't blog much b/c i'm busy with life..Sorry everyone!
Well everything is going great for me. This past quarter I got a 4.0 GPA and I'm on the Dean's list b/c I got all A's in every class...and everyone said I was dumb! I love proving people wrong. Although, I was dumb enough to stay with Randy for 2 years...ugh yeah i have to admit i wasn't smart when it came to that.
So yeah Jason wrecked again...on his way to work. I cannot say what he wrecked. But i can say there was no damage he got lucky! I start school again on the 27th...I cannot wait i'm excited I won't be home all the time which makes me happy.
I went to Morgan County Fair with Jason...It was a fun day. His cousin rode in the Rodeo, and an old friend of mine was supposed to but he messed up his hand/wrist so he didn't ride in it...
Randy told the courts that I'm a known drug dealer...and all i have to say is have you seen my criminal Record??? I have a clean record and I know randy should have a record for stealing from WalMart but he made a deal with the courts so it wouldn't go on his record b/c he is in the military...(or at least he was at the time) anyways its pretty damn funny that he talks a lot of shit about me...and his girl does too but I'm just letting it go...b/c honestly their life probably is not as good as mine...and i know he probably is not happy with his situation. So i'm letting it go....
Alright i gtg lots to do and so little time!!

Pics from our trip!

Here are a few photos from Jason and I's trip to see Gabby...We had the best weekend this weekend!
and Gabby is so cute. I loved the fact that it was just Jason and I and Gabby...my stepdaughter. So here's photos! enjoy!

Jason driving my car to Ill.

Gabby. She wanted to go swing so we took her to the playground right after we picked her up

Jason and Gabby -I have never seen such a great father. He truly adores his daughter.

Gabby before dinner waiting for daddy to get ready.

Daddy and Gabby watching something on his cell

Gabby all bundled up in bed

Gabby and Jason playing putt putt...it was so cute she would wait until we hit the ball then she'd run after it pick it up and go throw it in the hole. we always got a hole in one thanks to her!

Daddy and gabby

Before putt putt

                                               Gabby and Daddy feeding the giraffes

Gabby and Jason riding the Tran it was so hot out and we all needed a break from walking

Gabby and daddy as bats...

Gabby messing with her dad.

Jason we had to get out of the heat so we went inside and ate lunch so we could cool off.

I have more photos for a total of three albums on my facebook. I'm going to take more photos of us together...but seems like i rather be behind the camera than in front of it. Jason wants photos of us so i'm sure on his day off (and when i'm not on bed rest) we'll take some.
Update on me- I'm doing alright. Been to the ER twice and the doctors do not know whats wrong. I'm now on bed rest until it gets better or goes away...so now i'm wasting time until Jason gets home. hopefully i get better by his day off...which is tomorrow! :(