I've been busy with school! Its hilarious to me, a year ago I didn't really know who i really was. I was a wife. That was it. I was stuck in an apartment mostly alone all the time, i slipped into "a great depression" b/c of everything going on in my life at the time that i ignored everything. I even remember not cleaning all i wanted then was my family.
I have that all now. I'm not entirely happy. No that won't happen for probably awhile. but the fact i'm out of Florida and back in Ohio and that i don't have to deal with everything that happened in that apartment...makes me content with my current circumstance. I'm technically Married- but its more like single since he is sleeping with a nasty hoe and we haven't talked for awhile...other than a few messages from him to me. Its sort of funny at night i kinda miss that man i fell in love with years ago, the man i married not the man he is today. But somehow I'm coming to terms with the fact that he is gone, no longer in this world. b/c he truly isn't he changed. other than sometimes breaking down and thinking i'm not superwoman i can't do this all....someone puts me in my right place and i realize i'm alright. I don't mean someone cusses me out...which reminds me....
IF HE WANTS THIS DIVORCE TO BE QUICK....AND WANTS ME TO AGREE TO WHATEVER HE WANTS....HIS BITCH NEEDS TO STOP TALKING SHIT ABOUT ME. SHE MAY NOT SAY MY NAME BUT I KNOW WHO THE HELL SHE'S TALKING ABOUT. HELL EVERYONE KNOWS! AND FYI BITCH- I DON'T READ YOUR SHIT, OTHER PEOPLE DO AND THEY TELL ME ABOUT IT. I DON'T HAVE TIME TO PUT UP WITH YOU AND YOUR "STORIES!" BUT JUST A MESSAGE TO HIM I'LL GIVE UP FIGHTING EVERYTHING IF SHE FUCKIN COMPLETELY STOPS...IF NOT I'LL MAKE HIS LIFE A LIVING HELL AND WILL GO TO COURT AND FIGHT FOR WHAT I THINK IS BEST FOR ME! I HOPE SHE KNOWS SHE IS MAKING THIS DIVORCE HARDER THAN IT SHOULD BE. I'M TIRED OF HEARING PEOPLE TELL ME WHATS GOING ON. I DON'T NEED THE BULLSHIT. NOR DO I WANT IT!
ok now that, thats outta my system...oh wait more with that but its not bad or anything...supposedly he is signing the car over to me...supposedly but you know my husband he has never done anything he has been court ordered to do or is supposed to do. b/c he is her little puppet.
Ok once again sorry for digressing, I need to get furniture for my new place...I'm also so excited for next week...Im getting a new camera..probably a gift from my parents bc everyone that knows my situation knows i cannot even buy my own meds right now..which is why last week i was missing for awhile, i was in the hospital. Gosh, i really want to blog about everything going on....like Kaleb i dated in only in 2007 actually a few months b4 i met my now husband...anyways he was trying to cheat on his gf with a friend of mine so we told his gf wat he was doing...Every man that thinks he can cheat really needs to learn a lesson...actually every cheater does. But now he hates me, we were friends now he told me to and i quote "eat shit and die" lmao like that hurt my feelings or something.
It was beautiful out today...again....So I got to take some photos for my photography class.
Which reminds me. this is how i'm doing...When i was married i had nothing in life, alone and no goals in life. Every time i wanted something i had to run it by Randy, and when i did i was shot down every time...NOW...I'm in college. I'm going to start my own photography business as soon as i can. I HAVE GOALS, I have a better life times a million. yeah i don't have someone to hold me during the night, and for once i'm alright with that! Matter of fact since i was 18 i have always had someone but now its almost been a whole year without being someones girl...and i'm okay with that! Besides right now is more of a time for healing from the wounds he inflicted on me. But yeah so people say my life is boring...and i can tell you for a fact that its not boring what so ever. I finally feel like lifes worth living again.
So Friday i'm hoping my mother and I can go to The Restoration I want to go more than anything ever! I did go to the bar a few weekends ago...which reminds me THANKS CASSIE! (and everyone else i hung out with that night) It was fun! I wanted to go out dancing this weekend but I rather go to The Restoration!
sooo i dont know what else to type.
I need to get some Art Appreciation homework done...and then do a 3 hour exam..fun fun!
So i'll post something again soon....i'm sure of it! ooo next blog will be photos!
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