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Never Let Fear Decide your future

What consumes your mind controls your life

Sometimes the wrong choices bring us to the right places

Be somebody NOBODY thought you could be!

Prove them all wrong!

Maybe the journey isn't so much about becoming anything. Maybe it's about unbecoming everything that isn't really YOU, so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Court Outcome.

So as most people know i had court yesterday.
To get the final PROTECTION ORDER.
The protection order is in affect until March 2013 he cannot come 500 ft near me or my home.
 This makes me unbelievably happy! Also, the judge ordered spousal support. it IS COURT ORDERED
which means everything in the protection order he has to do or he can go to jail.
She ordered 1/3 of his base pay, and HALF of his BHA for my spousal support...ALSO she ordered him to sign over the Nissan to me. which if he doesn't want to do i'll make a deal with him. if he sends me the proof of insurance and the sticker for the plates then I won't call the court and have them file contempt.
He really should have showed up in court yesterday, bc he could have disputed it all. but he didn't so its set in stone.
OH AND his girlfriend cannot contact me in anyway or she can go to jail...its in the protection order.


The papers have been faxed to the navy. Since its court ordered it'll come right out of his paycheck.
The funny thing with this is he cannot dispute it at all. he can bitch and moan but thats about it.

So other than that, i have school monday! Have to be at an Art Gallery for my Digital Photography class.
I already have my first assignment for my Com class...Write an Essay that i would enjoy reading aloud in class. only subject i can think of...the story of my freedom. But the problem with that is...I keep writing about the bad, so i cannot think of any other subject.
anyone want to help?!
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Thursday, March 24, 2011

Finally!

Finally feels like i'm doing something right!
enrolled in college once again! So freakin' PSYCHED! Digital Photography...Art Appreciation..my top two classes i wanted to take and i got into them! even tho most classes were full i got in!
So starting monday i'll be on a strict schedule! but i'm so happy that i'm doing something again that idc if i have to schedule my whole day around studying...at least i'm doing something with my life!
Feels like i'm on top of the world right now!
but tomorrow will be a bad day...that is if my husband shows up for court.
if not then i won't be affected!
Monday  classes start...ready to start this already! lol New to this College too...for reasons of privacy i'm not saying What college on here! sorry but if ur a FB friend and want to know just ask...i cannot allow stalkers to see where i'll be.

sooo anyways...i gtg i'm dead tired from running around on campus all day.
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Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Recent...

As you all know i'm a photographer.
Mainly Self Taught.
So recently I noticed an exhibit/Art Auction that the Maysville Alumi Association is putting together.
I contacted the woman in charge and asked if she needed anymore art work. Of course they can use as much as they can get! So she told me that i can submit my photographs....
this is a great thing for me the public can see some of my work and the photos will get auctioned off and the money goes to a scholarship fund.
I'm happy to be able to do this and help out.
I'm going to show you my two favorite photographs...Not sure what i want to submit. so here are my two favs that everyone loves...and also some recent photos of my family.






I met my friend Cassie and her man Dave at the Park...I took my niece Maddie b/c I rarely get to spend time with her...I was able to get some good shots (as shown above)

Here is my favorites of my Nephew Kaseon


And now photos of Miya my youngest Niece






And now my favorite recent photo of my brother Chris




Ok thats some of my photos! thought i'd share them all with everyone.
Going back to College i start Monday! Super excited.
guess what my major(s) are...i'm a double major...
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Sunday, March 13, 2011

Seriously?!?!! Leave me alone.

I'm taking the advice of a friend and I'm NO LONGER accepting comments from Anonymous people.
If you do not have the BALLS to show who you really are then why bother?
I'm only letting friends comment on my blog.
And i'm not going to read anyone comments that are not from friends or that are Anonymous people. k?

I've never been the type of person to let someone sit at their computer and talk shit about me. I always have to say something and defend myself. but now i'm letting go and ignoring everyone.

I'm going to Hocking tomorrow to sign up for classes! I'm excited to get back to school b/c i let Randy ruin my schooling when I met him. I am also looking into apartments. which makes me happy to say i'll be on my own soon instead of crashing here. i miss staying with my parents tho. I wouldn't have made it thru this past 3 years without them.
i think thats it. idk what else to say.
i mean a lot has been going on...but with all my STALKERS i'm not talking about it all. i'm tired of putting up with shit. I thought they told me my life was boring. yet they won't leave me alone.
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Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Really?!

I've been asked if Randy Can contact me to talk about the car.
I honestly do NOT know.
Hearing his voice would probably destroy me. I rather just get an email. he knows my email address.
but idk just the thought of him and i speaking is scary to me.
Just knowing everything he has done, and everything that went on during this marriage and wats been going on since my birthday last year.
It all just sucks. Makes me wonder if he wants to speak to me bc of the CRC thing or if he really just wants to talk about the car and whatever else.

On to other news...
Things are looking up for me...even tho i tore a few muscles around my knee and i'm in a brace.
I'm still ok. things are getting better. i'm not completely happy. but i'm sure once everything with Randy gets done then i'll be able to smile and say i'm ok...hell i'm a strong woman.
Everyone keeps reminding me of that.
I don't need a man to make me happy...or to "complete me" its nice to have a guy around tho...maybe i just miss that...hell idk but i know being Married but separated is better than being with the guy. Notice i didn't say single...b/c i'm NOT SINGLE.
ok...anyways on to other news hopefully the car stuff gets figured out soon b/c i'm going back to school!
i'm excited. i know its weird to say but i stopped school to get married. and move away...and i learned from that. i learned what choices to make. that will in the end be good for me.
School is my number one top priority other than the divorce proceedings of course.
I cannot wait until my Last name is restored back to HALE.
being able to sign that name on legal documents will make me so happy.
Movies Friday...Going to see Red Riding Hood....Can't wait it looks like a good movie and one of my favorite actresses is starring in it!...Oh and Army Wives on Sunday...last season i cried bc it reminded me of Randy..i teared up sunday mom thinks i shouldn't watch it bc of wat i'm going thru...but i'm strong. i'll get over the tears.

As for Anonymous people...Thanks for the comments! But i have to address a few of them...
For one whoever this person that works with Randy and commenting on my blog you say you know both of us...No one that Randy knows, knows me at all...you might have met me but you don't know me.
i'm delusional? really well thank you! I've been threw a lot more than you have ever been threw. You may know Randy's Lies. but thats all you know. you don't know me so think whatever you want to think.

the others i'm tired of defending myself.
so i'm just going to let you all say whatever you want.

I gtg put heat on my knee and put it up for a bit...
Night all...VOTE FOR SCOTTY ON AMERICAN IDOL! lol
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Friday, March 4, 2011

So i guess i'm crazy! RESPONSE TO DEAR "CRAZY BITCH"

Everyone is telling me just to let things go, and to let you talk about whatever.
But for some reason i cant. Maybe its b/c my entire life i've had to defend myself.
I cannot just sit here while you post blogs about me.
So this is my response to your "letter" to "Crazy Bitch"

To you i'm "Crazy" for telling everyone the truth? Do you think i like people watching me 24-7 to make sure i don't kill myself? NO i hate it. Honestly I hate my life. I told myself at a young age i wouldn't get married unless i was completely and utterly in love with someone and with Randy I WAS. hell i still am. But i'm in love with the man i married...not the MONSTER he is today.  I dream of St. Augustine and JAX beach. I loved having him by my side, in public.
At first Randy was talking to women on the internet...then on his cell phone...Just like he did with me.
He started hitting me and laughing...i kept making excuses. he threw a 20 oz bottle of pepsi at me and my eye and cheek hurt for 2 weeks...he chipped my tooth at first, then he started with more beatings for random things...
I live in fear everyday that he is going to walk thru the door and will have a reason to hurt me. you will never know the fear i have everyday. I have PTSD from it. I barely come out of my room and i'm scared of men now. I can prove to you that my teeth were almost perfect when i married him...and when i moved in with him! only thing that was wrong...one tooth was a little out of line....now i have 5 gaps...four with nothing there...and the 5th is where my dentures are.
I guess you could call me crazy i mean i can barely leave the house without crying. I cant live my life b/c of what HE DONE TO ME! You said on a comment on my blog that my life is boring...yeah it is. it truly is.
But what can i do about it? Nothing. I even cancel doctor appointments b/c i cant leave my "safe place"
and just so you know if someone says NO when a man is trying to sleep with her and he continues and she submits b/c shes scared as hell THATS RAPE! i remember texting someone afterward and saying something like if you say no to your husband is it still Rape...she said yes. and to tell someone but i didn't. I couldnt. I was so blind i didn't want him out of the navy thats all he had other than me.

As for that email...I was pregnant in November 2008...i lost my tube and the fetus. Like i said before he was trying to talk to other girls on Myspace and myyearbook.com...We both had problems after my surgery.
I left one day to bring my dog to Ohio..we agreed that we were separated. and the thing i was talking about was a kiss and nothing else. i don't really have to tell you but oh well i did.

I'd really like to talk to you about whatever ?'s you may have or whatever but i'm not going to do that on the phone, most likely i'd start freaking out and having a panic attack and well its not something i want to go thru.
i was driving the other night a song came on and it started a panic attack, i almost wrecked.
My life is hard. Randy put me thru hell. All that your hearing is everything he has to say. Randy is great at lies.
i dont care if you claim all of that was a lie.
its pretty hard to believe that Randy didn't have someone when he was on deployment, he can never be SINGLE.
As for me contacting him...i haven't even tried. other than nov or dec when i called to make sure he was ok.
thats it. the only contact i have with him is thru the Navy.
By the way, i'm being told he probably won't get kicked out of the Navy for everything...he'll have to wait until his time is up.

His "friends" well all i have to say is Glenn came around all the time until he got out of the navy and went back home he spent his last day with us. Glenn's wife and i are still good friends....Carter came around all the time...Dereck lived with us but when he screwed us over Randy and i talked and we HAD to kick him out. Nathan...i was sleeping and he came in a touched my leg, i wasn't comfortable around him.  Randy even spent a whole day with a girl that is in VP 16 with him. we went to parties, cook outs, and just hung out with friends all the time. Chris and Deb were great friends. i miss them to death and i have no way of contacting them. We even went to a "concert" with one of his friends that i don't recall his name.
Randy never talked about any other friends. If he did then he never talked about them to me.
So the "FRIENDS" that say they never came around for me...i'd like to know who the hell they were b/c i get along with almost everyone. i become friends with anyone i meet. hell i even made friends with our neighbors
i hung out with my close friend in Florida almost everyday....unless he told me not to. or wouldn't let me. Hell she even helped me pack up my shit the FIRST time i left him. her husband even told me i was better off.
so these friends that never came over bc of me...are making shit up. or they were fed lies just like you.

I'm tired of defending myself to you.
from now on i'm promising myself i wont acknowledge anything you say unless you can be "civil"
you don't know me.
your fed lies.
thats it the end.
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