Really?!

I've been asked if Randy Can contact me to talk about the car.
I honestly do NOT know.
Hearing his voice would probably destroy me. I rather just get an email. he knows my email address.
but idk just the thought of him and i speaking is scary to me.
Just knowing everything he has done, and everything that went on during this marriage and wats been going on since my birthday last year.
It all just sucks. Makes me wonder if he wants to speak to me bc of the CRC thing or if he really just wants to talk about the car and whatever else.

On to other news...
Things are looking up for me...even tho i tore a few muscles around my knee and i'm in a brace.
I'm still ok. things are getting better. i'm not completely happy. but i'm sure once everything with Randy gets done then i'll be able to smile and say i'm ok...hell i'm a strong woman.
Everyone keeps reminding me of that.
I don't need a man to make me happy...or to "complete me" its nice to have a guy around tho...maybe i just miss that...hell idk but i know being Married but separated is better than being with the guy. Notice i didn't say single...b/c i'm NOT SINGLE.
ok...anyways on to other news hopefully the car stuff gets figured out soon b/c i'm going back to school!
i'm excited. i know its weird to say but i stopped school to get married. and move away...and i learned from that. i learned what choices to make. that will in the end be good for me.
School is my number one top priority other than the divorce proceedings of course.
I cannot wait until my Last name is restored back to HALE.
being able to sign that name on legal documents will make me so happy.
Movies Friday...Going to see Red Riding Hood....Can't wait it looks like a good movie and one of my favorite actresses is starring in it!...Oh and Army Wives on Sunday...last season i cried bc it reminded me of Randy..i teared up sunday mom thinks i shouldn't watch it bc of wat i'm going thru...but i'm strong. i'll get over the tears.

As for Anonymous people...Thanks for the comments! But i have to address a few of them...
For one whoever this person that works with Randy and commenting on my blog you say you know both of us...No one that Randy knows, knows me at all...you might have met me but you don't know me.
i'm delusional? really well thank you! I've been threw a lot more than you have ever been threw. You may know Randy's Lies. but thats all you know. you don't know me so think whatever you want to think.

the others i'm tired of defending myself.
so i'm just going to let you all say whatever you want.

I gtg put heat on my knee and put it up for a bit...
Night all...VOTE FOR SCOTTY ON AMERICAN IDOL! lol