i havent posted a blog for awhile....

I thought its time to update this thing. Life is going good for me. I'm just talking to someone, he treats me like a woman should be treated. But the thing is he has a lot of qualities that my husband had. I guess we will see where things go. Again we ARE NOT  dating. I rather wait until my divorce is over with. I'm not interested in hearing about drama or what others have to say about me and my life. I'm happy. I do not need bullshit. I have been looking for a job to help my family out and so Ivan get out of the house more and meet new people. I feel like I'm building my life up from rock bottom. Yet I'm happy about it! My best friend gets married on July 1st I'm excited for her! I think that's all...oh i got a new phone its a windows 7 phone i love it. I'm using it to type this. Well I'm going yo watch a movie then I'm going to bed bc I'm doing another job search tomorrow. I have never been this driven before
..but that's a good thing.

Seriously?

First off, If my husband is happy then thats great i'm happy for him. Yeah I don't understand why you say all the hurtful things you say but almost all of it doesn't bother me. I wasn't meant to have a life with him, and I wasn't meant to have a child with him. And for your information I CAN GET PREGNANT. I've been pregnant by him twice. You can believe that or not. But once again it doesn't matter what you say. b/c i know how his "accidental" hits are. and I know him a lot more than you do.
As for the so called "drug bust" funny thing is NO ONE WAS CHARGED. So i don't see how anyone can say anything about it. Theres no evidence of anything to do with drugs. they suspected things b/c of someones lies so they did a search warrant and found nothing but what was prescribed by the doctor for my parents.
My life is so damn good mainly b/c its been a year since i left him and i am finally happy.
i've met new friends. Talked to new people. Opened up about my life on how it was and how i want it to be.
I don't give a fuck if you don't believe me. B/c honestly miss know it all you do NOT know me. You do NOT know the life i live. I have an amazing family, Amazing friends. and i wouldn't give that up for anything you have. b/c i've had it. just remember that. I HAD YOUR MAN FOR OVER TWO YEARS! and most of the things he has said to you, he has said to me, and when he fucks you just remember he fucked me first...i do believe its called sloppy seconds. haha.
But honestly, I've been happier b/c i finally believe that i'm free of it.
Its funny that you think i'm jealous of you. I'm not. I can do a hell of a lot better than you. AND I AM!

FYI

It does say in that new article that NO ONE HAS BEEN CHARGED!
and no one has.
so get ur facts straight!
And things are good with me! My life is so  damn good right now!
and i'm happy for once! you cant make me believe that your happy when YOU TOLD ME that he hits you.
and that he cheats on  you...and everything else you've said to me! Cheater and a beater...thats good for your kid(s) right?
FYI crystal is not a cousin! shes my brothers girlfriend you idiot!
Now i have a life to get back to...

ONE YEAR!

Its been one year since Randy and I split up. Thursday (my birthday) It'll be a year since i left him. If that makes sense to anyone! haha
So it seems like i've came a long way this past year. I went from a complete mess to a beautiful confident woman, thats not afraid of anything lately. I'm going to college to better myself and to be able to have a successful business. My photography work has been used for newscasts, and multiple people have my work on their walls at home. I couldn't be happier when it comes to that. As for relationships with me, I knew for the past year that i couldn't be with anyone b/c i needed to heal. I've healed. No i'm not with anyone right now. But i'm ok with that b/c i haven't been looking. I rather get a divorce before I plan on getting involved with anyone.  Oh and this past year I've found GOD. Which he has saved me from a lot. and i do mean A LOT. I've made new friends, and reconnected with old ones...and i've even become close to some that I met b/c of my husband. So I'm actually thankful that i was married to Randy b/c i would have never of met Amanda and we wouldn't be friends today!

And since I've talked to miss Jennifer I know that he is still the same. He is not taking care of his responsibilities, has not learned anything from our mess of a marriage, and he is abusive still...and this is coming from no other than his girlfriend herself! But he is with her, CHEATING on her, and is stuck with her because she is pregnant with his baby. I feel sorry for the both of them. I mean she is stuck with him, and I can see their relationship becoming what ours was. And I know how he is, he isn't ready to have the big responsibility of having a child, and to have to take care of TWO....yeah good luck sweetheart.

I guess what i'm getting at with all of this...IS....I AM SO MUCH BETTER WITHOUT MY HUSBAND!
MY LIFE IS BETTER-I AM BETTER...AND I DO NOT NEED ANYONE TO "COMPLETE" ME.

 Theres a song that got me thru all of this and its so true...its called Shes going to make it by Garth Brooks.
Listen to it...its a good song.

Things are going great for me!

Well the last few days I have been getting credit for my photography on the local news.
Whiz news has used my photos for their stories! This is a great feat at least for me it is.
Its nice to know my work is so good that it can be recognized on the news.
Photo credits go to Tarasha Hale Lowe...that means so much to me!
They say if i have anymore photos for any stories around perry county then i can send them in and they'll use them!
I'm so happy! I'm finally getting my work out there...and a completed a "wish" on my bucket list.
here is the link
Fire destroys Perry County School house

I have more photos...i'll post later...but i have to get some sleep class in the AM

So i have to just say...

Ok so i have to tell this to everyone and anyone...
Jennifer has been talking to me.
She wants me to try to get Randy in trouble for leaving her while shes pregnant.
She has told me a hell of a lot of information.
And i can even prove this....I'm sure if you click on the images you can make them bigger!
Btw there is a lot more where this came from! I would be happy to show anyone more...just ask..

Randy sweetheart,
Do you really want to be with a girl that will do this to you when things get hard?
I mean teaming up with his ex wife...thats got to be bad. sucks to be you tho i know a lot of things now! and hun if u comment dont be afraid to use a name that i know u by! its not like i'll tell the cops...

Everything happens for a reason

Ever heard the saying Everything Happens for a reason?

Well I held onto that saying for so long from Nov. 5, 2008 when i lost my first child, until today. I'll always believe that its completely true. 

 Once a cheater always a cheater...right? That saying rings true for my estranged husband. He still needs craigslist to get laid....

AND there is a lot of people telling me that him and his girlfriend are not together anymore...

Best thing for her to do is say good riddance to him! A cheater and a beater...I would never ever want a man like that again. ever. 

Its funny how one day things can feel so wrong and messed up then you see someone elses situation and actually feel sorry for them. even tho i remember warning her forever ago about him. reason why it lasted so long....he was deployed. With my husband i have learned that he can be the best man on earth while you chat online with him....but face to face he is so unappealing and has nothing to say. 

As for people commenting on my blog and telling me all this why? and WHO ARE YOU? 

I hope its not b/c someone thinks that I want my husband back. B/c honestly I loved the man i fell in love with not the man he is today. 

As for some comments saying i hate this girl...I don't. I could never hate anyone...wait I can...I hate Randy Lee Lowe. and thats two years of abuse and everything else he put me through talking. But she believed his lies, and everything else. Yeah she has bashed me a lot but i've said some pretty mean things too. But In my defense I'd like to say that I always defend myself once someone starts it i have to end it. and stick up for myself. 

As for all of you that are telling me they are over...why tell me? I mean i appreciate everyones input and comments and by all means go ahead and say whatever you want, but there has to be a reason why your telling me all of this

Oh and i heard that Randy has been reading my blog- so Hello Bunches! How's my husband doing? have you gotten an STD yet? you might want to watch the craigslist ads i heard girls that need an ad to get men are crazy...and when are you going to start the whole divorce process again? I really would like to be free of you! i mean i pretty much am free i just need a divorce so i can go on with my life...and honey i honestly dont care whose bed your in....or any of that shit. I just want my last name to be HALE. and for it not to be a sin to date again...SO hows things going? enjoying your single days while you have money?! i mean getting out of the navy your not going to have much money to do things i mean the navy pays your rent gives u an allowance for food and all of that...you wont have that money when u get out. as for me sweetheart. well i'm doing wonderful! I'm going to school....I'm doing what i love. I capture the world thru my lens and i absolutely love it. I have some amazing friends! and family! I'm only really missing one thing...I don't have a boyfriend or a "spouse" but thats completely okay with me! at least for now, you see i'm not ready to date again. I'm really sorry to hear about your aunt! she was a amazing woman. but i am glad her suffering is over. i mean its not much of a life if its a daily battle. I was going to go to her funeral but i didn't see any obituary for her or anything...and then i thought well i probably wouldn't be wanted there anyways! But i do miss her terribly! well, i got to go...i do have a life to get back to. P.S. Do not comment on my blog I don't want to hear anything you have to say. thank you! 

My official Congrats!

Its so funny these days. I think someone thinks she really getting to me but i'm literally laughing with every statement she makes. She made the comment that shes having the baby i was supposed to have....ok sweetheart congratulations, sincerely! but i'm sorry i don't feel that way. Randy and I were not meant to have children...why? b/c we had major problems...God didn't want me to be tied to him for the rest of my life.
as for me not being fertile...well i am. i have no problem in that area. so thanks for ur concern.

Things are going great with me! I got a new camera..i love it! School is going good.
Everything seems to be going great for me. Except my friends grandfather is passing away and i heard its any minute now...god please help the whole family!

I'm doing a few photo shoots soon...so excited to do it all!
My Photography class has been amazing my teacher says my work is amazing! and that i'll have a long full career in photography...its funny bc i think about how Randy wouldnt let me go to school for this and now all my dreams are coming true.

I have people asking me when am i going to start dating again...well when my divorce is final duh!!!
funny thing is i was about to sign the papers and he fired his lawyer so it stopped the divorce...so the ? is why the hell would he do that if he wants to start a family with her and marry her?
I'm happy that he has found his perfect mate. but it is sad that they are having a bastard child. i mean a child out of wedlock...sorry i have to put it that way but my views on life really changed in the last few weeks. I heard he is in the hospital, hopefully he gets better soon! But the allegations of me calling him are false. Why would i call him?! I'm not sure what else is being said but good luck to them both...she'll need all the luck she can get.

Ok i'm done with this blog for now...Off to do homework!
ta ta for now!

RANDYS IN THE MENTAL HOSPITAL!!

LMAO!!!! OK So i had to call the navy today...bc i haven't gotten my support. But i just got a call...
that bitch put on her blog that randys in the hospital bc he was in a car accident and i was actually worried about him! then i get a call...Randys in the nut ward! LMAO! I laughed so hard a cried!
Sounds like his life is so great! lmao!
if i was with her i'd be in the nut ward too! lmao
I'm Loving this!
Cant handle it all sweetheart? awww poor baby!

The Restoration

I really needed this weekend. That whole saying I once was lost but now i'm found....yeah that has some meaning to it. I have been wanting to go since they started having these every year. But i never had enough want or need or anything like that to go. And when i did i couldn't b/c of my husband. But this year i felt a "pull" like something inside of me wanted to go, yearned to go...so i went!
When i got there i was walking towards the building and a gentlemen asked me if i needed a wrist band and i said yes...he handed me one for FREE. Now i see that as an act of God. ...Thank you...
The music was unbelievable! Hearts of Saints was amazing! A certain song made me cry my eyes out last night and so i had to get a CD.
Today was different. I felt like someone was with me the entire time although i went alone. it wasn't easy to just give my entire life over to God. everyone it seems like doesn't believe or has some opinion about religion so i've steered clear of it. But now i'm deeply rooted. I HAVE FAITH.
I had to leave early b/c i was in so much pain i couldn't stay. I went to get my ciggs..b/c u have to check them in...and i mentioned my pain so this man started talking to me about this bracelet. then he did a demo on his fellow staff member...then on me....and it really helped with my balance! He said it helps him with his pain...and gave me his number so i could purchase me one when i had money to do so...then i was talking tell the woman about why i'm so stressed and why its so bad...they ended up putting me in a circle and praying FOR me. i cried my eyes out. No one has ever done such a thing. we talked more and after i settled down the man said that the woman would like to buy me the bracelet! its 40 dollars! She was an angel.  when i walked towards my car my life was changed.
Everything i heard for the past two days hit home...and its all helped me so much. I'm changed. I did this for me. and Jesus saved me.
enough said!

Black and White photos of Alex

Alex is a real "trooper" lol....every time i take photos or want to all i have to say is ok alex lets go...and he is ready! Thank you Alex for helping me out all the time!

Just another update

I've been meaning to blog for awhile but i've been so busy "starting shit" that I just haven't had time...lol not! 

I've been busy with school! Its hilarious to me, a year ago I didn't really know who i really was. I was a wife. That was it. I was stuck in an apartment mostly alone all the time, i slipped into "a great depression" b/c of everything going on in my life at the time that i ignored everything. I even remember not cleaning all i wanted then was my family. 

I have that all now. I'm not entirely happy. No that won't happen for probably awhile. but the fact i'm out of Florida and back in Ohio and that i don't have to deal with everything that happened in that apartment...makes me content with my current circumstance. I'm technically Married- but its more like single since he is sleeping with a nasty hoe and we haven't talked for awhile...other than a few messages from him to me. Its sort of funny at night i kinda miss that man i fell in love with years ago, the man i married not the man he is today. But somehow I'm coming to terms with the fact that he is gone, no longer in this world. b/c he truly isn't he changed. other than sometimes breaking down and thinking i'm not superwoman i can't do this all....someone puts me in my right place and i realize i'm alright. I don't mean someone cusses me out...which reminds me....

IF HE WANTS THIS DIVORCE TO BE QUICK....AND WANTS ME TO AGREE TO WHATEVER HE WANTS....HIS BITCH NEEDS TO STOP TALKING SHIT ABOUT ME. SHE MAY NOT SAY MY NAME BUT I KNOW WHO THE HELL SHE'S TALKING ABOUT. HELL EVERYONE KNOWS! AND FYI BITCH- I DON'T READ YOUR SHIT, OTHER PEOPLE DO AND THEY TELL ME ABOUT IT. I DON'T HAVE TIME TO PUT UP WITH YOU AND YOUR "STORIES!" BUT JUST A MESSAGE TO HIM I'LL GIVE UP FIGHTING EVERYTHING IF SHE FUCKIN COMPLETELY STOPS...IF NOT I'LL MAKE HIS LIFE A LIVING HELL AND WILL GO TO COURT AND FIGHT FOR WHAT I THINK IS BEST FOR ME! I HOPE SHE KNOWS SHE IS MAKING THIS DIVORCE HARDER THAN IT SHOULD BE. I'M TIRED OF HEARING PEOPLE TELL ME WHATS GOING ON. I DON'T NEED THE BULLSHIT. NOR DO I WANT IT!

ok now that, thats outta my system...oh wait more with that but its not bad or anything...supposedly he is signing the car over to me...supposedly but you know my husband he has never done anything he has been court ordered to do or is supposed to do. b/c he is her little puppet. 

Ok once again sorry for digressing, I need to get furniture for my new place...I'm also so excited for next week...Im getting a new camera..probably a gift from my parents bc everyone that knows my situation knows i cannot even buy my own meds right now..which is why last week i was missing for awhile, i was in the hospital. Gosh, i really want to blog about everything going on....like Kaleb i dated in only in 2007 actually a few months b4 i met my now husband...anyways he was trying to cheat on his gf with a friend of mine so we told his gf wat he was doing...Every man that thinks he can cheat really needs to learn a lesson...actually every cheater does. But now he hates me, we were friends now he told me to and i quote "eat shit and die" lmao like that hurt my feelings or something. 

It was beautiful out today...again....So I got to take some photos for my photography class. 

Which reminds me. this is how i'm doing...When i was married i had nothing in life, alone and no goals in life. Every time i wanted something i had to run it by Randy, and when i did i was shot down every time...NOW...I'm in college. I'm going to start my own photography business as soon as i can. I HAVE GOALS, I have a better life times a million. yeah i don't have someone to hold me during the night, and for once i'm alright with that! Matter of fact since i was 18 i have always had someone but now its almost been a whole year without being someones girl...and i'm okay with that! Besides right now is more of a time for healing from the wounds he inflicted on me. But yeah so people say my life is boring...and i can tell you for a fact that its not boring what so ever. I finally feel like lifes worth living again. 

So Friday i'm hoping my mother and I can go to The Restoration I want to go more than anything ever! I did go to the bar a few weekends ago...which reminds me THANKS CASSIE! (and everyone else i hung out with that night) It was fun! I wanted to go out dancing this weekend but I rather go to The Restoration!

sooo i dont know what else to type. 

I need to get some Art Appreciation homework done...and then do a 3 hour exam..fun fun! 

So i'll post something again soon....i'm sure of it! ooo next blog will be photos!

New Apartment

Well as you all know i've been needing to get my own place and not stay with my brothers and friends and sometimes my parents! So finally i got my own place! I needed this! So much!
I'm trying to figure out how to decorate...i have very little but i'm sure i can make due.
with moving in and class things are hard! but i'm sure i can get thru it all...i mean look wat i got thru with my marriage....
welp thats it for now...i'm going to go relax on MY couch. getting cable turned on soon but for now i'm going somewhere tonight to see if i can watch idol

I hope your happy...

I'm tired of the bullshit. i hope your all happy.
As for Randy's girlfriend ....thanks for everything.
but i'm tired of the bullshit drama maybe i'll just spare him and end it all.

Court Outcome.

So as most people know i had court yesterday.
To get the final PROTECTION ORDER.
The protection order is in affect until March 2013 he cannot come 500 ft near me or my home.
 This makes me unbelievably happy! Also, the judge ordered spousal support. it IS COURT ORDERED
which means everything in the protection order he has to do or he can go to jail.
She ordered 1/3 of his base pay, and HALF of his BHA for my spousal support...ALSO she ordered him to sign over the Nissan to me. which if he doesn't want to do i'll make a deal with him. if he sends me the proof of insurance and the sticker for the plates then I won't call the court and have them file contempt.
He really should have showed up in court yesterday, bc he could have disputed it all. but he didn't so its set in stone.
OH AND his girlfriend cannot contact me in anyway or she can go to jail...its in the protection order.


The papers have been faxed to the navy. Since its court ordered it'll come right out of his paycheck.
The funny thing with this is he cannot dispute it at all. he can bitch and moan but thats about it.

So other than that, i have school monday! Have to be at an Art Gallery for my Digital Photography class.
I already have my first assignment for my Com class...Write an Essay that i would enjoy reading aloud in class. only subject i can think of...the story of my freedom. But the problem with that is...I keep writing about the bad, so i cannot think of any other subject.
anyone want to help?!

Finally!

Finally feels like i'm doing something right!
enrolled in college once again! So freakin' PSYCHED! Digital Photography...Art Appreciation..my top two classes i wanted to take and i got into them! even tho most classes were full i got in!
So starting monday i'll be on a strict schedule! but i'm so happy that i'm doing something again that idc if i have to schedule my whole day around studying...at least i'm doing something with my life!
Feels like i'm on top of the world right now!
but tomorrow will be a bad day...that is if my husband shows up for court.
if not then i won't be affected!
Monday  classes start...ready to start this already! lol New to this College too...for reasons of privacy i'm not saying What college on here! sorry but if ur a FB friend and want to know just ask...i cannot allow stalkers to see where i'll be.

sooo anyways...i gtg i'm dead tired from running around on campus all day.

Recent...

As you all know i'm a photographer.
Mainly Self Taught.
So recently I noticed an exhibit/Art Auction that the Maysville Alumi Association is putting together.
I contacted the woman in charge and asked if she needed anymore art work. Of course they can use as much as they can get! So she told me that i can submit my photographs....
this is a great thing for me the public can see some of my work and the photos will get auctioned off and the money goes to a scholarship fund.
I'm happy to be able to do this and help out.
I'm going to show you my two favorite photographs...Not sure what i want to submit. so here are my two favs that everyone loves...and also some recent photos of my family.

I met my friend Cassie and her man Dave at the Park...I took my niece Maddie b/c I rarely get to spend time with her...I was able to get some good shots (as shown above)

Here is my favorites of my Nephew Kaseon

And now photos of Miya my youngest Niece

And now my favorite recent photo of my brother Chris

Ok thats some of my photos! thought i'd share them all with everyone.
Going back to College i start Monday! Super excited.
guess what my major(s) are...i'm a double major...

Seriously?!?!! Leave me alone.

I'm taking the advice of a friend and I'm NO LONGER accepting comments from Anonymous people.
If you do not have the BALLS to show who you really are then why bother?
I'm only letting friends comment on my blog.
And i'm not going to read anyone comments that are not from friends or that are Anonymous people. k?

I've never been the type of person to let someone sit at their computer and talk shit about me. I always have to say something and defend myself. but now i'm letting go and ignoring everyone.

I'm going to Hocking tomorrow to sign up for classes! I'm excited to get back to school b/c i let Randy ruin my schooling when I met him. I am also looking into apartments. which makes me happy to say i'll be on my own soon instead of crashing here. i miss staying with my parents tho. I wouldn't have made it thru this past 3 years without them.
i think thats it. idk what else to say.
i mean a lot has been going on...but with all my STALKERS i'm not talking about it all. i'm tired of putting up with shit. I thought they told me my life was boring. yet they won't leave me alone.

Really?!

I've been asked if Randy Can contact me to talk about the car.
I honestly do NOT know.
Hearing his voice would probably destroy me. I rather just get an email. he knows my email address.
but idk just the thought of him and i speaking is scary to me.
Just knowing everything he has done, and everything that went on during this marriage and wats been going on since my birthday last year.
It all just sucks. Makes me wonder if he wants to speak to me bc of the CRC thing or if he really just wants to talk about the car and whatever else.

On to other news...
Things are looking up for me...even tho i tore a few muscles around my knee and i'm in a brace.
I'm still ok. things are getting better. i'm not completely happy. but i'm sure once everything with Randy gets done then i'll be able to smile and say i'm ok...hell i'm a strong woman.
Everyone keeps reminding me of that.
I don't need a man to make me happy...or to "complete me" its nice to have a guy around tho...maybe i just miss that...hell idk but i know being Married but separated is better than being with the guy. Notice i didn't say single...b/c i'm NOT SINGLE.
ok...anyways on to other news hopefully the car stuff gets figured out soon b/c i'm going back to school!
i'm excited. i know its weird to say but i stopped school to get married. and move away...and i learned from that. i learned what choices to make. that will in the end be good for me.
School is my number one top priority other than the divorce proceedings of course.
I cannot wait until my Last name is restored back to HALE.
being able to sign that name on legal documents will make me so happy.
Movies Friday...Going to see Red Riding Hood....Can't wait it looks like a good movie and one of my favorite actresses is starring in it!...Oh and Army Wives on Sunday...last season i cried bc it reminded me of Randy..i teared up sunday mom thinks i shouldn't watch it bc of wat i'm going thru...but i'm strong. i'll get over the tears.

As for Anonymous people...Thanks for the comments! But i have to address a few of them...
For one whoever this person that works with Randy and commenting on my blog you say you know both of us...No one that Randy knows, knows me at all...you might have met me but you don't know me.
i'm delusional? really well thank you! I've been threw a lot more than you have ever been threw. You may know Randy's Lies. but thats all you know. you don't know me so think whatever you want to think.

the others i'm tired of defending myself.
so i'm just going to let you all say whatever you want.

I gtg put heat on my knee and put it up for a bit...
Night all...VOTE FOR SCOTTY ON AMERICAN IDOL! lol

So i guess i'm crazy! RESPONSE TO DEAR "CRAZY BITCH"

Everyone is telling me just to let things go, and to let you talk about whatever.
But for some reason i cant. Maybe its b/c my entire life i've had to defend myself.
I cannot just sit here while you post blogs about me.
So this is my response to your "letter" to "Crazy Bitch"

To you i'm "Crazy" for telling everyone the truth? Do you think i like people watching me 24-7 to make sure i don't kill myself? NO i hate it. Honestly I hate my life. I told myself at a young age i wouldn't get married unless i was completely and utterly in love with someone and with Randy I WAS. hell i still am. But i'm in love with the man i married...not the MONSTER he is today.  I dream of St. Augustine and JAX beach. I loved having him by my side, in public.
At first Randy was talking to women on the internet...then on his cell phone...Just like he did with me.
He started hitting me and laughing...i kept making excuses. he threw a 20 oz bottle of pepsi at me and my eye and cheek hurt for 2 weeks...he chipped my tooth at first, then he started with more beatings for random things...
I live in fear everyday that he is going to walk thru the door and will have a reason to hurt me. you will never know the fear i have everyday. I have PTSD from it. I barely come out of my room and i'm scared of men now. I can prove to you that my teeth were almost perfect when i married him...and when i moved in with him! only thing that was wrong...one tooth was a little out of line....now i have 5 gaps...four with nothing there...and the 5th is where my dentures are.
I guess you could call me crazy i mean i can barely leave the house without crying. I cant live my life b/c of what HE DONE TO ME! You said on a comment on my blog that my life is boring...yeah it is. it truly is.
But what can i do about it? Nothing. I even cancel doctor appointments b/c i cant leave my "safe place"
and just so you know if someone says NO when a man is trying to sleep with her and he continues and she submits b/c shes scared as hell THATS RAPE! i remember texting someone afterward and saying something like if you say no to your husband is it still Rape...she said yes. and to tell someone but i didn't. I couldnt. I was so blind i didn't want him out of the navy thats all he had other than me.

As for that email...I was pregnant in November 2008...i lost my tube and the fetus. Like i said before he was trying to talk to other girls on Myspace and myyearbook.com...We both had problems after my surgery.
I left one day to bring my dog to Ohio..we agreed that we were separated. and the thing i was talking about was a kiss and nothing else. i don't really have to tell you but oh well i did.

I'd really like to talk to you about whatever ?'s you may have or whatever but i'm not going to do that on the phone, most likely i'd start freaking out and having a panic attack and well its not something i want to go thru.
i was driving the other night a song came on and it started a panic attack, i almost wrecked.
My life is hard. Randy put me thru hell. All that your hearing is everything he has to say. Randy is great at lies.
i dont care if you claim all of that was a lie.
its pretty hard to believe that Randy didn't have someone when he was on deployment, he can never be SINGLE.
As for me contacting him...i haven't even tried. other than nov or dec when i called to make sure he was ok.
thats it. the only contact i have with him is thru the Navy.
By the way, i'm being told he probably won't get kicked out of the Navy for everything...he'll have to wait until his time is up.

His "friends" well all i have to say is Glenn came around all the time until he got out of the navy and went back home he spent his last day with us. Glenn's wife and i are still good friends....Carter came around all the time...Dereck lived with us but when he screwed us over Randy and i talked and we HAD to kick him out. Nathan...i was sleeping and he came in a touched my leg, i wasn't comfortable around him.  Randy even spent a whole day with a girl that is in VP 16 with him. we went to parties, cook outs, and just hung out with friends all the time. Chris and Deb were great friends. i miss them to death and i have no way of contacting them. We even went to a "concert" with one of his friends that i don't recall his name.
Randy never talked about any other friends. If he did then he never talked about them to me.
So the "FRIENDS" that say they never came around for me...i'd like to know who the hell they were b/c i get along with almost everyone. i become friends with anyone i meet. hell i even made friends with our neighbors
i hung out with my close friend in Florida almost everyday....unless he told me not to. or wouldn't let me. Hell she even helped me pack up my shit the FIRST time i left him. her husband even told me i was better off.
so these friends that never came over bc of me...are making shit up. or they were fed lies just like you.

I'm tired of defending myself to you.
from now on i'm promising myself i wont acknowledge anything you say unless you can be "civil"
you don't know me.
your fed lies.
thats it the end.