I get a good view of Columbus from my hospital room. Actually from my bed!
I can't get up without having a babysitter...theres a camera and mic in the room i have these things glued to my head..with wires that go to some sort of monitor. All to see if during my flare ups if the legs turning in is a seizure or not. I was born with a seizure disorder but i had stopped having seizures and was off the meds. by high school. but i told a few people in school about the seizures and all that...i told a best friend and in 2004 her and i got in a fight she kicked me in the head and face a few times and i had a seizure...therefore it was the first time someone actually won a fight against me...other than dora lee she threw my head into a brick wall....Ok anyways
I was laying flat in my bed getting these things glued to my head and another guy came in to do an IV (after 8 times before that and no one having and luck...) he tried twice and had to call the expert in (before he put an IV in that he thought they could put fluids into..but when they did it made me scream!)...So this nice guy came in later with an ultrasound machine, to find a vein they could get blood out of and put meds into if needed.
I got a photo of that, i thought it was pretty cool...
My vein via ultrasound...Loved it only took one shot to numb me, then one poke and it was done!
My vein
he did my right arm b/c my left arm was killing me b/c the first nurse blew one of my veins and its still killing me a day later...
After everything i spent the night crying my eyes out bc of the pain and bc i've been sleep deprived.
finally i got meds...assholes wouldnt help with the pain they wanted an event so therefore it just hurt all day
Heres the view from my room its better in person
Day 27
Ugh do nurses really have to wake you up at 6am? come on now!?!
all i remember was lets do a quick evaluation...so i was a good girl and complied..."hows your breathing?"
ugh really did she HAVE TO ASK?! all i had to say was i haven't smoked in over a damn day!!!
So she said thats good really?! its 6am an we are talking about ciggs!
i fell back to sleep woke up at 8am for meds and food...then woke back up for lunch then back to sleep...
i didn't know i was so tired! Docs came in made me walk...feet turned in bc i'm still in pain....told me i had a lumbar puncture in the morning...i'm about to freak out...i'm literally scared.
I hate being here all by myself. I had a psych evaluation today...the guy was super cute and sweet and i wanted to hit on him but how i felt and looked stopped me...he left to talk to his supervisor then him and his Supervisor came back...and this is what i was told.
I have something wrong with me... result of what my husband put me thru...
I have "PTSD"
POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER...why? b/c of the shit my husband put me thru and come to think about it his mistress thinks i'm making it all up...i'm making up getting beat up i'm making up him hitting me. several times? then why do i have PTSD now? tell me that! I cried my eyes out for hours it always something right after another in my life....i really is.
I played around on the net, watched TV listened to music and sang...being taped the whole time with a mic above my bed...great huh? lol i did that for a few hours and then the tears came rolling down the pain was killer and all i wanted was medication and my mother ...i got the meds at 9 and i'm fighting my sleep.
i got to see the Life flights...pics tomorrow i need to call the nurse then go to bed.
....PHOTOS....
The Glue that holds these on is high in ether... I LOOK HORRIBLE!
6 Life flights just during dinner...I had to get a good shot but i could not get out of bed and so its not the best i've taken.
its 4:32am i woke up at 3am with pain and so i stayed up longer
I have a Lumbar puncture tomorrow/today watever...and i get to go home!
im going to research PTSD is.
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