Day 29 of 365

Hello everyone! I hope all of my friends reading this is good...other people that i wouldn't call friends...stop viewing my blog. thanks!

Today i've been having a difficult day. my back is killing me!! i never thought it would hurt this bad!
I finally scheduled Megan and Tylers photo shoot...it went from a couple shoot to a mini-family shoot and a couple shoot! I'm super EXCITED!!! Megan and i talked for hours about poses and everything. i'm not just getting more photos for my portfolio but i'm gaining a new friend. It seems like her and i have a lot in common.
I haven't made new friends all by myself in a long time. always too worried about getting close and getting hurt.
but some fears just have to be overcame.
Megan informed me of someones blog..and its an interesting read. Really honey you can brag all you want about that poor excuse for a man. I know the truth. PTSD- POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER. HAS EVERYTHING TO DO WITH HIM!!! i don't care if you believe me about any of it. i know what he put me thru i know that man better than you'll ever know him. you and him are going to take a big hit soon. Great thanks for filing the restraining order...you know i pushed his command for that. I'm more afraid of that man that i let others believe. I'm a stronger better person b/c i got away from it. i warned you your "tom" will change he'll get bored and post ads on craigslist...and anything else he can do to spice up his life.
Yeah he is paying your way for college...thats great! Congrats. i'm so happy that u'll have something to do for an excuse to get away from him! As for your wedding day if you cannot wait so bad then why the hell is next year? As for you saying that i slept around and gave him something so he gave you something honey the only person i slept with was my husband i barely left his sight so tell me how i could sleep with another man.
I got checked several times, after i left him I know for a fact i was clean and i'm still clean...STD FREE! so that makes me wonder if Randy's cheated on you! i can prove with medical records that don't have anything! and never have had anything.
As for the court order for spousal support consider it on its way! but also consider that it won't be just the petty cash i've been receiving if he can support you and your child he can support his WIFE which by the way is still me!  I'm not going to take this shit lying down!
I loved him more than you ever will. he loved me more than he will ever love you. he just lost me for good so he had to find a replacement have you considered your the replacement? your just like me down to the same exact shows on tv! its sort of creepy.
You can call me fat all you want. God made me this way and he also gave me a muscle disease. only reason you've slimmed down is b/c ur ass had surgery to get a lapband! then went on weight watchers...good for you  sweetheart.
Keep blogging about me. my friends find it interesting...i find it repulsive.
Your the one reading my blog. I have never laid eyes on yours until tonight, when  i heard you were talking about my medical disorders. I had to see what was so interesting about my blog that you had to blog about it.
and i thought you said my life is boring! lol
I can keep things out of my blog so you don't hear about them, but i find some parts of my life are private.
but also I do not need someone to be happy.
I'm fine single. hell i'm better than ever! happier too!
so keep reading my blog. i love how you like to check up on me sweetie.
I hope Randy and you are enjoying every minute of your life right now. b/c its not going to be wonderful forever. and i dont even need to contact you two!